Journal

4:48pm: yeah its gonna take forever for me to save up enough money to go back to london

11:31am: pretty funny
i just read all my old posts and man am i a loser aha but thats y u all love me so much

9:21pm: i wish i worked at a box factory

10:50pm: hahaha wow i didnt think this thing waz still around but im gonna try and bring it back to life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!









if i feel like it

2:38pm: standing outside for 35min with the wind at a steady 15-20m.p.h. winds i think would make anyone angry
and im not lying ive been inside 4 a hour and one of my hands is still really really cold






i wanna dislike u sooo much right now but my heart wont let me

12:24pm: horrible horrible news



























new jersey has another teenage driver on the road
and i dont know if i told jill or alison i waz gonna do this but the 1st cd i listened to driving by myself QUEEN! lol

9:59pm: really really excited right now. Im trying to thing of ways for my youth group to raise money for the hands and feet program. The hands and feet program build houses for kids in haiti. I really wanna do something that will really effect the lives of people. I can even imagine little kids having absolulty(sp?) no shelter. everytime i think about it, it makes me sad. anyway if u have any ideas or just wanna give some support so i can show the people in charge of the yoth group that i do have support and people do want to do this leave me a comment





An image flashed across my TV screen
Another broken heart comes in to view
I saw the pain and I turned my back
Why can't I do the things I want to?
I'm willing yet I'm so afraid
You give me strength
When I say



I want to be your hands
I want to be your feet
I'll go where you send me
I'II go where you send me



And I try, yeah I try
To touch the world like
You touched my life
And I find my way
To be your hands

9:17pm: a night I didnt expect
ok tonight i waznt gonna go trick or treating cause i didnt want to lol. so i waz out in the garage(sp?) fixing some of my hockey stuff and sarah and melissa come and ask me (or made me it depends on who u talk to) if i wanted to go with them. so of course i did and sarah's mom gave me a bucket lol it waz awesome too cause it glowed in the dark. anyway we walked around 4 a while and then went to melissas for a while, I really had alot of fun....................it waz awesome

9:49pm: this weekend waz great..i saw sooo many great people ok most of u wont know who these people are sooo thats ashame but i saw/talked to well of course old postie dave gardner brian sexton bill doran jim kierrrrrrrrrrrrrr and other people that i cant remember lol im really tired worst night of sleep ever last night. the best person i saw this weekend would b laura just because i seem to annoy the crap out of her....its great!!!! lol ok im gonna go catch some sleep hopefully

2:49pm: i havent updated in a while cause nothin new has happined not that i remember right now







oy life is boring

11:15pm: my life has gotton so sad cause im home like every friday night. like tonight it waz just me and oscar sitting on the front step of the house at 9:30. i just randomly started talkin to him and i must of looked soo crazy. anyway he waz eating a stick and i said to him "those things r pointless to eat its not like they taste good............its pointless talkin to u" and as soon as i said that he stopped looked up at me and gave me a dirty look. i said sry and as soon as did that he went back to eatin the stick it waz the funniest thing in the world














tomorrow i got to go to my uncles b-day party........i waz told i really wanted to go

8:02pm: only have one thing 2 say and here it goes i waz so stupid to think u would ever like me

4:13pm: best weekend i had in a while
just got back from o.c. weekend and it waz the best one ever!!! it waz also they last so that kinda sux but o well. i met this kid chuck who just followed us like all of saturday but "it waznt the bad kind of following us" as karl put it. what made it so good this year waz the new people of the group. all of them were great and is ashame the weekend went by so fast. so many memories(sp?) like tryin 2 give away a slice of pizza 2 people. also hangin out with tim that boy aint right lol the best times were in the car with brittney sleeping sarah eating all the pretzels and my fav. melissa sooo tired she rambles on and im not sure what shes talkin bout lol also on the way down when melissa is tryin 2 study and oscar lays on her book. others including me huggin the peanut guy and nick huggin him but he wouldnt let go of nick lol..and who can 4get ralph...and the game the seniors played where we were in some very dirty positions and not on purpose. great times













if i 4got anything u better tell me or else.........ill do nothing

12:46am: not 2 much has been goin on theese days. although for the past like week ive been wanting 2 go play hockey but no one ever seems 2 want 2 or be around. betsi is gonna live at the shore now and in my room when im not there so if ur coming down 4 youth weekend and theres random girl things in my room there not mine!!!! lol im all excited bout my new icon 4 my lj.....its coach bombay himself!!!! cant wait 4 it 2 kool down then i can wear my ducks jersey ok thats it out

1:18pm: camp waz soo awesome well none of the kids listened but the staff workin there waz soo great. the best days were when karl waz there....good times o its crazy the last 5 nights ive beem having the same dream......it goes like this..in standing in a big backyard of my own house. all my hopes are fullfilled. I have everything a person could want home a family and love everything that accounts for anything in life i have...but the dream always ends the same way everytime. i lose it all and im standing alone in the middle of a desert.................crazy stuff

6:03pm: this week has been so boring but 2nite im goin down 2 wildwood 4 a week. like all my family is gonna be there...thats ummmm fun mayb. next sunday i have 2 go help my sis at camp so im not gonna b back untill august 13th.....i no all of u r gonna miss me lol. speakin of missing someone i really miss my night walkin buddy :-( i gotta go pack b back in 2 weeks

12:08am: just got back from an audio a concert. it waz awsome they played for like an hour and a half. they brought back the cowbell. and people of ffl if u guys want a cowbell player just call me anytime. Yesterday i went 2 c charlie and the chocolate factory with sarah melissa and micah. it waz a good movie i still like the other one better. ok im goin 2 wildwood tomorrow at 8 untill tuesday.

12:44am: hey im really hyper right now sooo this is gonna b really crazy but i have the perfect movie. its gonna have me, jeff
goldblum, reginald veljohnson (who waz in family matters) and Bronson Pinchot (who waz in perfect strangers). these r just the main characters ill throw some of u people in my movie dont worry. I dont even no what its about and it already sounds awesome lol wow mayb i should go lay down ok l8r

10:24pm: i got back from creation 2day and it waz awesome. I might of scared some of the new guys that came with us though lol. Audio A was good even though there concert waznt very long. im tryin 2 find how 2 get in touch with my hero mark.

ok classic moments of creation 2005

the Newsboys concert. In the middle of it they had 2 fix a transformer so our group just started singing songs while we were waiting.

The best part waz playin gender games with alison and karl. We covered them in blankets and made people guess their gender by looking at the back of their heads.

saturday night once again i relized i got great friends. Thanks karl and nick u guys r awesome. even jill and alison were great u 2 had no idea what waz goin on but ur hugs made me feel better.

karl walkin around the canadians campsite when they werent there

our dance 2 audio a's song "get down"


"this is neither the time nor the place but were doin it anyway" Karl

"my coffee has a mind of its own," some random chick

"i hate that kid!!" me i love that kid lol

"Alison guess what were gettin in heaven" my mom

"arrrrrrrggg u be walkin the plank 4 that"

im sure theres alot more quotes but im sooo tired so yeah thats all i remember

8:08pm: just got done driving around my dad finally trusts me driving out of the parking lot lol. karls comin over 2nite thats bout it 4 now
















cant wait untill next wednesday

12:33pm: im goiin down 2 wildwood 2day untill thursday night with betsi then im gonna come home then go back 2 wildwood on saturday....crazyness

5:26pm: just got the movie casualties of war with micheal j. fox and sean penn. that is such an emotional movie. I mean i no ever since my whole depression thing im a little more emotional than most guys but wow that movies crazy. and when i say im emotional im not crying lol the movie is about During the Vietnam war, a girl is taken from her village by five American soldiers. Four of the soldiers rape her, but the fifth refuses. The young girl is shot by the 4 guys. The fifth soldier is determined that justice will be done. its a 100 times better then it sounds

11:20am: JUST GOT DONE SCHOOL 4 THE SUMMER WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!

3:49pm: last night i went 2 the phillies game. they were playin my texas rangers and the philies won 8-5. at the game in the section above me i saw the koolest old guy in the world Potsie!! that guy is great

4:26pm: this weekend waz awesome so far. friday night i went down 2 wildwood. saturday night i went up 2 the boardwalk and won on the horse races lol. Sunday i came home and last night i stayed over karl's. 2day i went 2 the memorial day parade (sp?) i really didnt want 2 go but andrea waz there and she told me 2 come so of course i went. after that is when my stupidness kicked in. instead of calling my parents 2 pick up i desided 2 walk home from the cemetery (sp?) in beverly. yeah i didnt relize it waz over a 2 mile walk. lol Hey i noticed something while i waz in wildwood this weekend. there are not alot of "nice guys" out there anymore.............we dont seem 2 b missed either